we were young
this heart feels so tired, sometimes. where has everyone gone? strangely enough, I’m the one who’s missing. but it’s the ones who haven’t that have disappeared. they have faded away, ghosts.
sigh.
i’m watching things fall apart in the most fascinating way, facebook.
complete silence says something,
each picture’s a thousand words,
constant status updates scream.
was everything always like this? maybe it is I who has changed, grown up, and am finally seeing things as they always were. maybe everyone else changed and i wasn’t given my instructions, how to be older.
this heart is heavy, and there is so little to lift my spirits. there is apprehension and a heavy cloud over my head even as i think about returning. i just can’t seem to grasp all the pieces.
the harder i grasp at them, the quicker they slip away. yes, yes. like sand, only they’re pieces of something once great, once beautiful. and now? well, i guess it’s all become sand.
smile, shane. at least it didn’t rain on your ass today.
pretty deep stuff shane..
I like.
*oh, and you’ll always be the annoying kid at church who teased the heck out of everyone else. It’s a pretty endearing picture.
Good times..